Why The Fashion Blogger In Me Stays In Me

Hi Everyone!

So today’s post is quite a personal, reflective one.

As a fashion, beauty & lifestyle blogger, I am very much lacking in fashion posts. I have a grand total of 3. One of these I am considering removing from my blog because it isn’t of a quality I’m happy with. This leads me on to the topic of today’s post – ‘Why The Fashion Blogger In Me Stays In Me’.

I pride myself on being able to colour co-ordinate & pull outfits together. Yes, everyone makes faux pas with their outfits but in general I think I do pretty well. I don’t, however, consider myself to be very fashion forward. When photographed I often feel that I look awkward. I find fault in every photo of myself. This is probably because I look at each individual element of the photo & not the bigger picture. If I changed each of the ‘flaws’ I see the overall pic would most likely look extremely odd & fake.

This, along with my dislike of the additional 2st 7lb my body is carrying round because of my medication, does not make for a happy fblogger!

Whilst I can write (well, type!) this all logically & with complete honesty, it doesn’t compute in my brain! I find it really hard to see myself as others do.

4½ years ago I was underweight by 1½st (once again medication related!)! It was frightening. I looked ill & was still awkward in pictures. It was the only time in my life where I had a completely flat stomach & ‘thigh gap’. That’s not how my body is designed! I knew I would put weight on when I came off the meds & that I had to make sure I didn’t end up with a distorted body image.

I began to become unhappy with my weigh when I hit the 9½st mark. I would tell people that I was ok with the weight gain but I wasn’t. The heaviest I got to was 11st 11lb. I wouldn’t buy clothes because I didn’t want to accept it. Shopping was soul destroying.

I’m going off on a tangent now, so back to the topic in hand:

It’s a confidence thing. Since leaving my retail job I’ve been much happier & more confident. I’ve more energy to exercise & am not using sugar & caffeine to combat fatigue as much. My IBS has improved as a result of these factors. That also has had positive impact on my confidence.

So, moving forward I will be including more fashion posts. I’m intending to purchase a camera & tripod so will then not need to rely on the help of friends & family to take pics. I’m going to attempt to take outfit pics when I go on holiday in March & am working to tone up to help myself feel more confident on the beach!

Thank you if you’ve managed to get to this point in my ramblings!

Do you have any tips on self-confidence, toning up or posing? I’d love to know!

Tania Xx